hi blog, it been a while since I have written something here. Life is so different now. Now i am working, which means stress level is increasing. My company is very competitive, I need to handle all sort of customer, including scolding from both customer and my supervisor. sometime i feel like just give 2 week notice and just quit. But if i just do that, it just shows that i could not take setback and chicken out whenever I faced problem. I have so many thing i want to say, but who can really understand how I feel. friends are drifting away from me as I made my baby my first pority. Today, I just felt as if a knife had stab into my heart. I had spent so much effort, so much time in preparing her present. and the first pay check i had gotten, I went to buy her a gift. and what i have in return is just scolding and hurtful words. I really feel like saying FUCK . why cant a girlfriend appreciate what I had done for her. When I was having my break, I utmost most of my time msging her. Trying to make sure that I really do think of her. As days goes by, I am feeling that she is dominating this whole relationship. We no longer have an agreement anymore. She want it her ways, mean must be her way. No matter what right and what wrong. And me, always let it her way. shall continue tomorrow. tomorrow I will suffer hell from the mistake that I have done..