i feel like wanting someone that i could talk to to say all the thing out.
i thought i was always right that i stick to the policy of having stead . such as care for her, think about how she would feel , etc.
forbiding her to drink , friends.. i thought that she will follow it.
i feel really very insecure when she is with her guy friends. As she is always very close with them. Action her such as bor , etc. sometimes, i would think that she never even think of what i will feel. it like doing what she like, yet neglect of the feeling i will have.

Sometimes, i really feel like just make her jealous or what. At least she will understand how i really feel, how much pain and jealousity i have.But thinking twice, it was just plain childishness.

To from part, think i was also partially wrong. I shouldnt curse.

So from now onwards, i will keep thing to myself and any unhappiness i will just write here ba.

people might ask why i do this things/

it because i just plainly love my this dumb dumb girl w/o any returns.
we have been through a lots since we been together.
hope we can last long long.