Dear Dairy,

I have a lot of things i want to say.
Recently we just broke off, cause I am having dinner with my other poly friends.
During that day, I remember we were happily flying kite. after which my poly friend called me and asked me for dinner. Everytime i go out, i will always tell my gf. I told her but i am so stupid that forgot to say the name. I just remember her saying raining. Take care dear. To be honest, I didnt lie to her. Why do one mistake that i did and she wont understand and forgive. I always cherish this relationship between me and her. I cheer her when she upset. Letting her to vent her anger. Making things for her to eat. Taking care of her when she is sick. Why!!!!

When she made some mistakes, i would unconditionally forgive her. The most i will just nagged a bit. This is what I call love. I continue this rs cause of just one thing. Because you are important and I love you!.. I feel hurt when you replace our status. Dont come and compare that i hurt you and broke your trust. When you left me alone, going out with other guys to town. Have you think of how would i have felt. How much betray that you left in me. While you are having fun and I trusted you totally. A 1 on 1 date? And the excuse you gave me is cause he feel like eating that and he is hungry.

Did i ever ditch you cause of those. A sorry and I forgive you.
In my heart, you have hurt me so deep that I wanted to break apart this rs.
I cant even tell you how i feel cause the result i am excepting is just quarrel. Friends told me to give up, cause you are no longer worth.

Today it is all over.
going to put an end to all suffering.
life had to go on. thinking back of the relationship, i had put in all my effort and sincerely all my heart into it. I have given up, our preperitive are different. I can no longer trust this relationship anymore. To be honest, I have always put you in the first place in no matter what. But thinking if this prolong, it will just bring more suffering. I feel hurt , sad, crying over losing you. I want a person who will utterly care for each other. I feel darn hurt when I have made up my mind in giving up this relationship. It took me very very long to made up this decision.

Nation Service perhap is a better choice for me this time round.
Thank for the sweetest moment in our first year together.
Never regret of having you.
All the best to you in future.

hi blog, it been a while since I have written something here. Life is so different now. Now i am working, which means stress level is increasing. My company is very competitive, I need to handle all sort of customer, including scolding from both customer and my supervisor. sometime i feel like just give 2 week notice and just quit. But if i just do that, it just shows that i could not take setback and chicken out whenever I faced problem. I have so many thing i want to say, but who can really understand how I feel. friends are drifting away from me as I made my baby my first pority. Today, I just felt as if a knife had stab into my heart. I had spent so much effort, so much time in preparing her present. and the first pay check i had gotten, I went to buy her a gift. and what i have in return is just scolding and hurtful words. I really feel like saying FUCK . why cant a girlfriend appreciate what I had done for her. When I was having my break, I utmost most of my time msging her. Trying to make sure that I really do think of her. As days goes by, I am feeling that she is dominating this whole relationship. We no longer have an agreement anymore. She want it her ways, mean must be her way. No matter what right and what wrong. And me, always let it her way. shall continue tomorrow. tomorrow I will suffer hell from the mistake that I have done..

If you said i didnt consider your feeling.. then have you even consider mine. Saying your Sian of me and the rest of the perople. Asking for break up for 5 times. Venting all your anger and trantrum at me. Dont even care when i am sick. Instead just blaming me. I consider your feeling that why i FCKING keep it within myself. Sometime, i feel like a FCKING DOG instead of a boyfriend. Someone for you to throw everything on, don even consider if you had already hurt me. whenever i see some of my friend. although their gf did fierce towards them, but in the end they wont say some hurtful stuff, wont break. I know whenever quarrel, the chances of you asking for break is like 80%. I dont even know what wrong with me hanging onto someone that dont cherish and yet living my life in misery. I really hope you will change for the good. I dont want to spoilt my mood anymore. Tomorrow is me and my girlfriend 1.4years aniversary together. Just want to be happy living together with her. Hope the day would come true..

hello peeps,
Here i am in year 3.1. To be honest, I think i have grown to become a good boyfriend and have mature. why a good bf ? have any guy willing to give in and let their gf vent their anger, accompany her when she needed you even last minutes? Throughout this whole relationship, i do have a lot unhappiness. For instance, i will never think of any guy that would tolerate 5 time of break up and still willing to give the girl a chance to trust her. At time i feel stress, cause to me , she is so pamper by me. whatever i say, she wont even listen. wont listen to my feeling. Afterall, i just a human. I really hope she one day will think before she saying. And care about how people feel.


don make me lose the trust in you again. cause this time, i doubt i can pick myself up and continue this relationship w/o the trust i have in you anymore.

this few days, baby been stress stress.
i must stay strong, cannot fall, must support her..
!!!!!!!